Too Much is Just Enough

I see him moving toward me

Intent on weeding out all the flaws

I am in pain, but trying to do my part

Hoping to keep up to his pace

I'm watching the way he works

So careful not to leave any trace

Of the things preventing new growth

I am doing my best, wanting to keep up

Yet caught up in watching the way

He so humbly does his part

Then does my part too

While I enjoy just being near him

Again he is right beside me

Close enough for me to feel his warmth

And sigh over the way he smells

Trying to think of what to say

To get his attention

Only to lose my chance

Because he has looked outside himself

Giving his attention to the one

God blessed with a child-like innocence

I long to be like that

Seeing the world with no filters

Looking outside myself

He gives me his number

I feel a leap of hope

One phone call leads to more

He shares his deepest thoughts and feelings

While I marvel at his strength

He tells me he has been damaged

While I only see the perfection he is

He is like a memory I didn't even know I had

Until he opened a door to his past

Giving me a feeling of deja vu

Like I knew him and loved him before

Leaving me searching my memory for more

He is so much; more than enough

Making sparks just by being himself

Everytime I hear his voice or see his smile

It washes over and through me like a wave or current

Making me feel so alive

While bringing peace to my turbulent soul

He is more than I could imagine

When I dreamed of the man I desired

I am striving to better myself

Wanting so much to be worthy of him

His light shines forth like a beacon

I feel lucky to bask in it's glow

-19 Feb 2012-