I want to ask...                                                               
Do you remember the night I can't forget,                                                   
Drawn to your smile and getting lost in your eyes?
You seemed to be almost afraid of me,
Then started a tickle fight; pinning me down,
Feeling a connection for a second or two,
Before we realized how it might look,
And moved to separate ends of the couch

I want to tell you...
I like the way you held back;
Not quite sure whether to trust.
Making sure of your feelings
Before embracing who we could be.
The way you held onto a bit of the innocence
Even after all the trials.
I love your patient, careful pace.

I want to ask...
Do you ever think about the note.
Telling me all the reasons you loved me.
Just before you told me it was over?
How you asked, "Can we still be friends?"
As if it was a consolation prize
You hoped would ease the pain
When you ripped your heart from mine

I want to tell you...
Our goodbyes have been "until next time" .
Even when years separated us.
You were always in my thoughts
With my faith in what we could be.
To love is to gamble on losing,
But with each gamble comes assurance
That you will recognize better love when it comes

I want to ask...
Have you forgotten that day a lifetime ago
When the empty place you left behind
Was still waiting for you?
I wanted you there with all of my heart
So naive to think you'd still fit
We were strangers whose memories fooled us
Into thinking nothing had changed

I want to tell you.....
I have never forgotten how it felt
To look at you and have so much hope.
I thought I could let the past go.
I gave more than ever before.
Only to push you away
When I really wanted to pull you closer
And trust with my fearful heart

I want to ask...
Who did you turn to when you felt so alone?
When everyone around you seemed too busy
Or just couldn't see what you were dealing with?
Did you know how often I thought of you?
How I hoped you were happy and healthy?
Wishing I could just take a peek into your life
To make sure you were okay.

I want to tell you...
I could be the one you can turn to
When your world is falling apart.
I want to give back what you've given me
Just by being someone I could trust.
If I had any regrets over time,
It is not that I let myself love you,
But because I still held something back.

I want to ask...
When you look into the mirror of our lives,
Are the problems bigger than we thought?
Do you miss who we both used to be?
The carefree faith of youth, believing love conquers all?
Or do you look at who we are now,
Knowing each of those broken roads,
Got us to a better place, here and now?

I want to tell you...
The mirror of my life seemed so cloudy.
I questioned what I really wanted.
What's been said and done can't be changed.
I wipe out the past and reflect on today,
Feeling a familiar and constant love,
For someone who has always come back.
I'll step forward to meet you halfway.

          2/28/14